I swear there's something wrong with me...

I keep looking at my old house on Googlemaps.

It's really freaking me out. I can see all the feilds I used to play in and I even found my friends houses and I can tell how old the pictures are just by if a little stream was in this particular spot or not, and it wasn't --the stream was like, what? 4 feet?-- which means it's about 4 years old.

Kinda pathetic that I can tell that, just by a stream in an old field.

Anyways, I keep feeling homesick and wanting my cats back, or hell, one cat would do. Blackjack.

There was this day, about a three weeks ago, when I started crying ten times in one day. And it was a school day, too. Good thing I'm good at hiding my tears. Though it does kinda piss me off when I actually WANT someone to notice I'm crying and then they don't.

Whatever.

Anyways, you know my mom read my diary? I was like, (jokingly) "You should read my diary!"
So the next morning, I missed my bus, and in only the ten minute space I was out of the house my mom had read my diary. WTF! You don't DO that! She was like, "You're messed up! I think maybe it's chemical! We should put you on meds!"

Screw her! SHE'S the one with freaking depression and fucked up Seritonin levels and crap so SHE can take HER damn pills and leave ME out of it! Just cause I'm her daughter doesn't mean I inherited her stupid depression.

Anyways, you know, they're sitting right next to me as I type this? On the couch. LOL. They don't even notice. Stupid idiots. My dad is literally, like 3 inches from my face right now, and he's so focused on his damn hockey game he doesn't even know what I'm doing. He probably thinks I'm typing my books, which in reality is really a good assumption since it's basically what I've been doing non-stop since I got to this stupid barren wasteland + a river called Highland Falls.

Sure, it'll get better in the summer, but right now, it sucks. I mean, I lived in a small town before, but C'mon! This place LITERALLY BANNED fast food joints! Cause the old people in charge, since it's a military base, don't want the troops getting fat. Course, the base forced the town to put in a McDonalds anyways, so seriously, they might as well just let everybody ELSE in. So yeah, I have NO burger King, Tim hortons, Wendy's, chilis, TGI Fridays, or so on and so forth, and no real stores either, just crappy little corner business' that are like mom and pop crap. OMG. There is NOTHING to do here.

Plus, I'm trapped indoors because of this crappy winter storm that already killed some dude in central park... some tree fell on him. Hell of a way to go. Anyways, but yeah. Trapped inside. With nobody but my crappy parents. OMG.

Hell.

On.

ICE.

LITERALLY!!!

GOD, all they've been doing the past fucking two weeks is waching the Olympics and the freaking News. NOTHING ELSE. And the TV is on ALL DAY. Plus, cause this is an open floor plan house, there is NO WHERE in the whole house I can't hear the DAMN TV. OMG!!! I AM GOING INSANE. I am so sick of freaking healthcare issues and who is playing who in curling and blah blah blah gold investments and erectile disfuction ads! GOD! Get a life, guys! At least when I'M trapped inside, I can write my freaking books, or practice my awesome drawing skills, which is technically like job preparation anyways.

On that note, since I moved, I've had to do college searching again, and I decided I want to go to Full Sail University in Orlando Florida. It's SUPER AWESOME. It's like, only for media and arts. And the whole place is like Hollywood, because the film majors use the campus for sets. And there are like, school funded freaking ROCK CONCERTS for the music majors. Like seriously. It's mandatory. They HAVE to put on a rocking concert for their final project. How bitchin' is THAT!? And it has a good tuition and and awesome web site that you guys should REALLY check out if you're interested in art. So YAY. Plus, Apple, yes the HUGE AWESOME GODLY company, has sponsored Full Sail, so now EVERY SINGLE student that signs up to go there gets a FREE MACBOOK PRO. JUST FOR SIGNING UP. OMG. YES.

haha, capslock.

But so yeah. Life? Boring as Hell. Outside? Cold as Hell. Which is ironic. Parents? Oblivious as Hell. Mental State? Mercurial and Schitzophrenic as Hell! OMG!

Somebody come rescue me from obscurity! XO

...and I miss my freaking brother so FREAKING MUCH too, OMG. I haven't seen him since the beginning of January. BOOOOOOOOO. Sometimes I actually FORGET I have a brother. How gay is that!? I feel so bad about it too! Like, guilty as shit! But I really do! I go on Facebook, and I'm like, Oh yeah! I have a brother! lol.

But SO not lol.

So yeah...

HAVE AN AWESOME DAY DX Cuz I sure as hell won't.

But yay, 2 snow days in a row. I would usually be happy, but it only means MORE TIME trapped inside with my parents. OMG I can't WAIT till I have a drivers liscence so I can be like Screw you guys, I'm going to Barnes and Noble. Which is my happy place. And the best store ever. Plus, there's a Burger King next to it to! Which is my favorite restaurant. Cept they're both like 20 minutes form here, which kinda sucks. Thank GOD for GPS.

*Sigh* but I'm out of money and now I can't even buy books or anything anymore D:

See, I went to Non-Con at Vassar College, and blew a bunch of money, and before that i blew like 60 bucks and Barnes and Noble, and that was only like half a month ago and I'm already done reading all the books cept one, lol. But that's just me. I read a book a day. Then wait two weeks, and read another book in a day. lol.

So yeah. That's the News.

Now back to you, Artemis.

Forgotten...

Valentines day, alone, and underage.

...so I can't drown my sorrows in alcohol.

So... I'm going to drown them in books instead. :/

...if my mom ever gets herself ready to leave. God, she's such a snail.

Anyways, so a year ago today I got a dozen red roses, five cases of chocolate bullets (0.25 mm!), and a big card...

...but I'm alone this Valentines day and single, which sucks because I keep thinking of my ex...

...shit... Not a good way to spend a holiday... and there are a bunch of stupid chocolate things my mom bought there to temp me to drown my sadness with suger -_-;; Which is always a bad idea, even if I AM skinny as hell. Sadly, chocolates are not the answer here. I think I'm gonna overdose on Techno music and try to forget the date.

*sigh* Even my book characters, as tortured as they are, have a better love life than me =_=